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October 4, 2007

Apparently what I didn't know was that the lady was a total bitch. I did all this work for that residence counselor position, i even drove hours away to get to Saugherties for orientation and this women just crossed the line. I could not take it. SO i called her early on in the week to fin out if she had worked out a schedule or not and when i called it seemed to me she had not so i continued to plan out my week accordingly including getting my hair done, running necessary errannds, etc. etc.  oreintation comes along and i spend the entire day driving and getting lost and whatever that dayy entailed and i get over to osbourne hill. first of all the lady was not there and then second of all she had me penciled in on her paper schedule for the next day and lastly the woman who was there couldn't tell me when she'd be back.

This bitch left me the most digusting voice mail I have ever recieved from any employer and I'm very upset she left a voicemail rather than having me call her back.  but anyway she threathens me, Threatens me that if i don't go to some meeting the next morning that she'll fine someone else for the position and that I should have to cancel my hair appointment and that it is very silly and that she's disappointed because i didn't put in my two weeks at the Gap and that she thinks she found the wrong person and blah blah blah. Anyway i was very upset, i was so upset i started crying. I couldn't even stand. And it's funny i was on my way to see chris to talk about part-time and I just felt like so hurt that I couldn't take that job. That woman had no right to talk to me like that, she's a fucking control freak. And if she's doing this now, and i haven't even started working, she'd probably keep doing it down the line. SO i say the hell with her. I was going to be getting paid crap anyway. Right now i'm content with the gap and I like what I'm doing and who i'm working with and the schedule is more reliable because I'm not working crazy hours each other day or night shifts so i can actually work in having a life while I'm at the Gap.

So right now i'm sorting out the wrinkles and still at the Gap but i think i made the right decision because i feel like i'm in a good position to become fulltime and evn if i don't get hired as fulltime i still would have paid all my bills and saved up enough money to put down a payment on a car. And i'll have good discounts for the holiday shoopping and the holiday bonuses which sounds like i'm not gonna get that much but it's more than nothing.

Ive heard nothing from the Peace Corps.

I went on my second date with Kamal and it went well. I came over and we watched knocked up. he tried to make out with me the entire time. we got pizza and talked and traded stories. it was a lot of fun and this weekend we are going out to the movies to see the kingdom which should be very exciting. i really like him but i'm nervous about having a serious relationship because i know that is what he wants. I want that but just not now.

I want to not be involved with guys but i keep meeting guys and i don't feel that attractive. I feel like crap, i feel like i look like crap and i feel like im not doing crap either. I'm crap-tacular. But i guess guys like that. lol. Eh, i went out and met some people but.  . .funny story. one guy i went to high school with tried to talk to me. We had chemistry together, he didn't know my name or remember me at all. And he's gonna come up and talk to me like thats cool. thats not cool with me. i remember him making fun of me, i think. i'm pretty sure. he ran with the crowd that made fun of me so it's possible. i gave him my number and he texted me a few times but i have been unresponsive. I've been trying to stay in touch with those people i like. I'm trying but im becoming so forgetful when calling people back or returning messages. Speaking of messages Jay left me a myspace message. I've thought about responding but i have to find a convienent time for myself to stay in touch with him. lol.

But anyway things are ok. I want to go back to school in January if i'm not going anywhere with the peace Corps so i'm looking intowhat schools I would like to attend. I'd like to take classes online and work at the same time but i'm not sure how long i want to be living at home. i'd really like to live somewhere else. Anywhere but here.

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